I must be getting worse as I age because I had a bad day yesterday. I had this anxiety thing so under control for so long now. I'm disappointed. My fear is that this is going to trigger a bi-polar episode and really mess me up. Everything has been so good and now I feel that I'm on the edge of going all the way back to the beginning. I know I have to keep my mind from focusing on that...but it's hard not to. I'm scared. I'm afraid of ruining all that I've worked so hard to build up and resolve ever since I've had the bi-polar under control. I don't want to fool with my meds again and have to go through that all over again. I don't want to hurt the people around me and destroy those relationships I've worked so hard to repair. Gosh, I'm fixing to cry, so I'm gonna just leave it at this right now.