I have not posted in here in qute awhile, for I had not had the time, nor did I want to bring anyone else dwon..
Well I need to vent, and I have no where else to go..

I am having some major deperssion issues and I can not seem to sort them all out ?
I do not have the heart to finish school, and I am thinking of droping out after this term is over, and just going back to work, my grades are not so hot.. my heart is just not in it anymore. I do nto want to get up and do homework, I do not want to go sit in a class room and listen to another dull teacher talk about soemthing I do not want to learn (gen ed stuff)
My computer classes are so hard, I think i just need a break from them for a while, and my boyfriend is being very supporitve of this for now.. He told me he would support me in what ever I decide to do.. Which makes it harder ( i know it should make it easier) but it's not ????

I just do not knwo what to do. My depperssion is so bad, I do not want to eat, and when I do, all I want to do is throw it up, which I have not done that in a very very long time.. I feel the urger to cut, but I have signed a contract saying I will not do that with a counsler so I wont break that.. A contract is just thtat just like a promise.. Very hard for me to break, that is why when I wrote a new promise, I made that and my mind went "i am telling you not a good idea" , but my heart said you hve to do this, for yourself..

Please help ????

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