Last Tuesday, my shrink at group said something that triggered me. I SI'd and my outside therp is not happy because, for the first time I refused to tell them. Everytime I have self-harmed in one way or another I get a very negative message from the shrink. Why aren't you learning coping skills in class? Why aren't you figuring out different ways to deal? I've told him before that I usually can find a way to deal with my triggers but that there are occasions when I act on pure impulse and am incapable of doing anything else.

When he talks to me like that, I like an idiot. Why in the world would I continue to subject myself to that? Especially after he said he thought I was attention seeking. I have NEVER been attention seeking! I've only told my Case Manager about it because my outside therp kerps insisting I need to admit these things.
I think my outside therp is a little unhappy with me because I refuse to let my Case Manager know that I SI'd after speaking to the shrink the last time.

I don't feel like I can quit the program, because my outside therp said I needed more help than once a week individual therapy. I'm afraid of being fired from her if I quit. So I feel 'stuck'.