Don't get discouraged by all the fears you're feeling. Take it slow, baby steps, nobody says you have to go and gush your deepest emotions right away.

The small community can be scary, but with a good and ethical doc these issues will be addressed in a way you'll find agreement with.

I'm pleasantly surprised with my t (5 years older than me), so preconceived notions should be ignored until you can meet face to face.

I started cutting too (again). very sensitive issue even with an established relationship with my t.

Go when you're ready and know we/I am here if the road becomes scary......