I cant help but pretend I am fine. People have more important things to worry about than me. So somehow I always end up throwing on a huge smile and going OTT to act happy. And people seem to fall for it (despite the fact that I don't speak, I get angry so easily, I'm in an adolescent unit, and I keep on attempting suicide).
They just don't care.
I don't care.
I hate myself, I hate my life, I hate everyone. for years, I have been trying but I've finally given up. I screw everything up, I feel trapped and hopeless and I wish I was dead, I really do.
People see what they WANT to see. They see my right arm, the one without any scars, instead of my left arm, which is ugly and flawed. They see my smile, forced and fake, instead of the tears pricking in my eyes. Sometimes it feels like they don't even see me at all.
I just don't know what to do anymore- No matter what I do or stay, no one cares.
Look, i'm sorry to go on about everything I know its selfish and stupid and I'll annoy you like I annoy everyone else but there's no one else I can talk to.
I just want to scream.
cant even scream, cant talk. What the hell is wron gwith me I cant even speak why am I still here?
oh screw it, just forget about me.