I hear you. You sound severly depressed. Do they have you on any meds? Are you able to let anyone in and talk to them. If not we are always here to listen. We do care. I know it is hard to believe but we do, because in one way or another most of us have been there.

Right now I'm severly depressed too. I don't want to be here at work doing mudane things. I want to be in bed curled up and left alone. I'm not living I'm existing.

All this to say, we at PC do understand loneliness and pain and want to be here for you.