First I want to say hi to everyone here,HI. I started seeing a therapist a month ago and she has diagnosed me with BPD and I am freaking out. I always knew there was something wrong with me but refused to seek professional help. But recently I started dating again after my wife died 2 years ago. And the few attempts at a relationship have all failed. The last attempt ended in complete disaster and I wanted to end it all. My friend talked me into finally seeing a therapist and I am glad I did. But at the same time I am terrified. She wants me to start DBT soon. Worried about that cause of the group part of the therapy. Also worried I will get overwhelmed by the intense therapy and fail. Have not told anyone in my family yet,worried what they will think of me. Wondering if anyone here has told their family and if you have how did it go? Also wondering if I will ever be able to have a relationship again. My marriage was like a roller coaster. My wife put up with a lot of stuff from me and she never knew why I am the way I am. Now I feel guilty about that cause if I had sought help years ago then maybe it would've helped her understand me.
I am having a hard time dealing with all these emotions.