I guess I have a similar problem as well. I simply can't connect with people anymore. I have the depression trait as well. (Not sure if this is the way to put it).

I think "Normalies" as I call them, can sense if you are not one of them. They simply just shut you off. I think the Normalies like to live in the state of denial.
Perhaps, I'm the stupid one. Coz the human brain uses more juice to concoct a lie.

Well, that's just life. Least you still let women into your life. I just push everyone away. Hope you find my response relevant & opened more doors for insight.
Be well.