December 2008... I was tired of the drug life.. I had no where to go.. The first Friday this month slipped by me... I'm a little amazed it did... It is the thought, the want, desire, actions though... Not the spefic day as it was many days... I'm not a saint... I won't lie I've drank and smoked weed with in 2008 to now but never like I used to and nothing harder like I used to grab into... Though I get urges still (especially for coke at times) I don't go looking ....

It may sound nuts to some but I'm grateful what I learned on my path.. Yes I learned a few things... I think one of the bigger things is taking responsibility for myself....

I don't want to promote any drug use but my path I took I learned even if I lost out on some things. Even if I'm still learning as well (but let's face it even with out my path with hard drugs I'd still be learning something).
Regret gets me no where and it was partially an acid trip that made me question wtf. Was I doing with my life?.....

Many well thoughts all.. I can say I haven't emotionally drank which is where I get into trouble these days. I haven't emotionally gotten high on marijuana either....

May this new year be another step... I know today was another for me.