{Not sure if this is the right area to post this but...}

So, I know that its not necessarily the healthiest course of actions, but I self efface and I, honestly, prefer it that way. Problem is, tomorrow we are having a big "intimate" family dinner (like 20 little ones, all of their parents, many of the grand parents, etc.) and they are a very loud (but friendly) group of people. The problem is, it will be an hour and a half away from home and I won't be able to escape when I get tired/bored/grumpy.

I was counting on my new phone to get here today and "setting it up" to be my distraction (i've never had a "fancy" phone so plenty to learn), but now I will have nothing to distract me (lost my old phone). I plan to take a book, but I always get the "what are you reading, what's it about" questions, not to mention it can come off a little antisocial. My family likes to know how everything and everyone is, they want to play games, have a talent show and a modeling show (which they recruited me for and I couldn't say no and be polite).

Don't get me wrong, its all great stuff and a lot of fun but after a few hours sometimes I just shut down and don't have anything left to say to anyone and then it gets awkward because i'm smiling and trying to keep up appearances but it just stresses me out on the inside. Thats when I turn to my phone .... that I don't have.

Do you have any tips on how I can self efface in this helpless situation?