Thank you Crimsonblue, I'm glad I can be a little helpful. I agree that if the feelings for your provider become too strong and interfere with treatment then it needs to be discussed. Sometimes I waver with both sides of the issue. it could be interfering in some areas but I also know that I wouldn't be where I am in my life without having seen him. The one thing about the crush that is helpful for progress is my never wanting to disappoint him. I'm determined to show improvement more than I ever have with any other provider. So in a sense the strong attachment/ crush is a good thing. Of course I feel like he can't be replaced and that is not a very good thing, but I guess its natural. I do sense a counter transference though I'm not sure which angle it's coming from. It might be that he likes being the object of someone's affection, that identifies with me based on our similar life experiences, or both. Whatever it is I think he'd be disappointed a little also if I felt I needed to end treatment with him because of my feelings, and it's probably why he doesn't encourage a deeper discussion.