With the emailing about her, you can make it more personal to you, tell yourself how you really feel, etc.? "I wish T would answer my email. . ." and then keep going on the same subject which gets to be more and more about you and less about T; you ask "why" (do I wish this) and it gets to be like when we were little kids and asked "why?" at the end of everything but because one isn't paying close attention, just going along, answering the question(s), weird thoughts and ideas can spring out and surprise and help us from inside ourselves.