I didn't use the word "immature" because you refuse to stay dry and alone weekends.

I used it because of your reasoning behind drinking.

I use it because you lack foresight, the "bigger picture" hasn't occurred to you yet.

* Like getting your act together while you're still young which will help you be better prepared for whatever huge-a.s.s. bipolar/borderline shyt hits the fan in future...

* Example stop or atleast tone down the frequency of the boozing and get your meds sorted before blaming them for not working. Also learning how to have sober fun because it increases impulsivity and leads to "bad" behaviour for you, which leads to rocky/painful relations between you and your friends.

I use the word "immaturity" because your main priority is fitting into a drinking culture, because according to you "drinking is all anyone does here", and that you are convinced nobody can stay sober at a party sober people are supposedly "lame" because you've met 2 of these.

Nobody is asking you stay home alone and not get invited to parties. I get invited to parties all the time and everyone knows I don't drink. I'm not even on meds, I just choose to not, except for New Years eve.

People invite me because I'm fun to hang out with, I sing and dance and hava good ole time, just as good as the friends who are drinking.

If people didn't want me around because I don't get drunk with them every weekend then they're not the type of people I want to be associated with.

I have standards

So it really wasn't meant as a jab at you or anything negative like that, its just an observation that your priorities and reasoning are not of the mature type just yet, and that's ok.
Like I said, we all get there at our own pace and on our own route.

I'm really glad you're going to speak to your dr before quitting. I remember it well, it really is no joke, especially once your body is accustomed to or dependent on a cocktail, then things can go south pretty fast, and that's WITH a truckloada coping skills.