I'm so stressed I feel like pulling my hair out! can't calm down until some things get resolved. Besides that depressed as ever, I'm certain I don't have a purpose in life, I don't know why I bother getting up each day. Maybe I need to go inpatient a few days for having Sui urges? I don't know, I'm trying to make this through myself. 12 more days until my next appointment to get my meds adjusted. 12 very long days.