Thank you Pat, you're a good woman and I appreciate that about you!

Had another rough day yesterday. My anger got the better of me at one point and that sent me spiraling into an anxiety episode like the ones I use to have. But the good news is that I was able to pull myself back together and move on in a positive way. I was able to resolve the issue and ended up with a better relationship with my boyfriend whom I love very much. We're starting to understand each other better now. But the emotions involved in having a relationship with someone after being single my whole life is quite a challenge for me. We have a wonderful relationship and he truly understands the disorders I have and hasn't run from it or judged me for it. But these kind of deep emotions are a first for me and sometimes it freaks me out that I can love and care about him so very much. I feel vulnerable and at his mercy. He's in a very powerful position over me. But I do understand the importance of not giving away my sense of self and responsibilities to myself. I know better. I just haven't had much practice, so I work on that daily! Let me say though, he is not responsible for the difficulties I've had lately. A lot of big changes have taken place in my life, I'm still adjusting, and being the vulnerable person I am because of my diagnosis I have to struggle with that specifically (not that I think I'm the only one, we all do!). Anyway, the support I get from pc is very important in my ability to cope and adjust to the changes and that I'm able to express myself without getting anxious about it. Thank you!
Tgrspurr xoxo