Well believe it or not I actually forced myself to get out of bed and take a hot shower. After the hot shower I had a bad anxiety attack but I pushed through it. Got myself dressed and drove myself and two of my kids to Applebee's to eat. Since most places are closed today Applebee's was very busy. In fact when we got inside we actually had to stand in a line and wait for a table. While waiting one of the server's who have waited on us before brought me over a soda. He remembered what I drink and just brought it over. I felt special. I thought this was so nice of him. He ended up being our server and of course I left him a nice tip. This random act of kindness by this guy really made my day. Of course he had no idea how depressed I am and how today was so hard for me. His kind gesture really put a smile on my face. It made me think that no matter how deep I get into this dark hole of depression I've got to continue to claw my way out. I'm glad I made myself get out for a bit tonight. I have a tiny bit of hope now.