Thanks. It really was / is hard to deal with but thanks to therapist and lots of self help books I'm better.

I meet the therapist in 2 weeks and I'm going to discuss this with her. It's been 6 months now and my head never let's it go. I feel like I should at least ask a question by now. Her reasons for me dropping it is that I haven proof, I'll never be satisfied with a denial which I'll get anyway and I don't need this story in my head right now.