First of all, I'd like to take the time to thank anyone who took the time to hear my struggles and even more thanks to the kind words offered by others. Couples counseling was actually suggested at my last pdoc appt. My gf and I are considering the financial possibilities of this. I have had time to sit her down for this conversation, but I still have concerns. I'm trying to decide if I'm having real or delusional fears, and either way, are my fears reasonable and/or for my safety. IDK yet.

She says that the pics of us are on a thumb drive because she was afraid if her phone crashed that she would lose the pics of us. She also claims that the pics of the joint ex and her came from an app that keeps putting pics back that have been deleted. I do know that I searched a little deeper to discover that it is true that some of the pics are dated wrong. This was proven through some pics I knew the date of and her phone had them dated for about 3 mths later. She swears that all the pics are old and that they've not seen each other during the time she and I have been talking.

I feel I have to give her the benefit of the doubt right now. I explained to her why I found these pics, along with some other untidy-ed type things, were hurtful to me. She says these things have no meaning to her so it hasn't been a priority to dispose of. I told her that I understand they have no meaning to her, and I find that a good thing, but that my mind applies meaning to them and it is very hurtful, and that I want her to consider their impact on my feelings even if they have no impact on hers.

For now, I am going to try to lay low and breathe. I will continue to stay consciously aware of my actions and behaviors in this relationship and try to promote its healthiness. After some time passes, I will look again, if more appears and/or things don't start to get removed....I will know where I stand, and I suppose if my fears are correct, I will work on acceptance.