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Originally Posted by IndieVisible
I don't like baseline because it scares me. I'm connected heavily in the real world and I am so aware of it, all of it, even the little things. Which wouldn't be so bad except all that adds to my anxiety. And I actually act more odd at baseline. Baseline forces me to deal with life's every day problems, which I don't mind but I seem overly aware of them more at baseline.
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I think I can relate to that. Sometimes I feel like I am more equipped to deal with life when I am manic. For the past few years I think I kind of relied on the onset of another manic episode to yank me out of depression, which is bad bc none of the problems I have created were solved; the problems kind of just snowballed into this gigantic mess that I am running away from now.