I understand where you are. My mom died 2010. She was my best friend. I still haven't finshed grieving. Yesterday was hard I cried. I managed to pull myself together long enough to get through lunch at my daughter's. I thought I had worked through the grief at one point and could talk about the happy days with her, but now again the memories just bring me to tears.

I'm afraid I would be like you, I don't think I could get a letter out. I know part of it is my deep depression right now, but that doesn't make it hurt any less.

My thoughts are with you.