Oh, where to even begin. I suppose it started during the time of my life where I was so unhappy about everything I was I just wanted to be someone else, so I invented a persona that was everything I wanted to be, and that persona just so happened to be female. In a way I always identified with females, some of my favorite heroes growing up were Sailor Moon, Buffy and Xena. I even like Supergirl more than I do Superman. I always found women easier to write for than men too and more interesting so it just made sense at the time.

I eventually came clean feeling guilty and made my biological gender more publicly known but I stuck with the name I had chosen for the woman. Still use that alias to this day as I've come to like it and when I tend to use more of a male alias I feel uncomfortable like I'm out of my skin. Although I usually either put 'male' or 'undisclosed' in my gender profile I don't mind being addressed as she or her nor do I go out of my way to correct people when they say it. I always use women to represent me as well be it an avatar like here or when I'm playing a simple RPG I always play as a woman representation of me. I've even been told I write like a woman, whatever that means. According to one person I spoke with it's because I use proper punctuation which is apparently signs of a woman or a European. Interesting that...

Lately I've been having the urge to find a place where no one knows me and put 'female' in my profile so people would interact with me as they generally would with a woman. Which is ultimately what led me here... I'm starting to wonder if I'm transgender. I identify more with women, I tend to get along with them more than with other men and heck I even find some men attractive. Thing is, I'm not disgusted by my body or anything about my default male persona and I don't get mad when someone addresses me as he or him. I'm generally comfortable with my body for the most part which leads me to doubt since I've seen several transgender comment over the years about how they don't like their physical body and the one transgender friend I talk to regularly have said similar things. I just always picture myself as the girl. A redheaded girl with emerald green eyes which is oddly specific...

So, yeah, some insight if you could provide it would be most appreciative. If you're still reading this then thank you.