I feel very much the same. I usually think everyone is mad at me, and I apologize all the time, even when I'm not at fault. My boyfriend gets very frustrated with this. I'm always asking "what's wrong?" "are you ok?" etc...

I am overweight, and even after losing 80 pounds, my family still finds ways to comment about it. I haven't had to deal with the direct insults that you have, but I do know what it's like to be not feel good enough, thin enough, pretty enough.

I wish you the best.