I did tell my outside psychologist about what he had said that triggered me. She is the only person I've spoken to that helped me understand that it was nit shameful and just a coping mechanism. Even the pdoc I see seems to think that it is somehow my 'not willing to learn' and thinks his negativity helps. When I see him next month (and no, I didn't tell), I'm going to tell him that his negativity is not helping. And as my psychologist said "if you were perfect, you wouldn't be there". Thanks.