Right now I'm kind of panicky and shaky, so I'll try to keep it short.

As a teenager, I have a lot of mood swings as usual. Sometimes it gets a bit hard to control though, and when you throw in all my anxiety problems it just elevates them to a weird level. I'll feel so pumped up for anywhere from hours to weeks, and I'll be talkative and happy and try stuff and then I'll just crash into this state of self-pity and despair. At the end of the day I'm always upset, always lonely, always just losing grasp of myself.

Right now I'm really happy, really anxious, and really sad. I'm shaking but I want to blast music and sing and dance but at the same time I want to lay on my floor and cry and kill myself. I would like someone to talk to, but unfortunately I have no friends, which makes me think about how lonely I am and it makes me feel even worse.

I don't know, that's my dumb rambling.