Hi there
I know what you mean -it seems this has been going on forever.I am o.k most days but lately find myself bingeing again about once a week.Its like getting on a roller coaster and I cant get off -I have no control.Or like a snow ball that starts rolling and rolling.Or like falling down a man hole.I have to be so careful lest I fall.It is alot better than it has been ,I used to binge on whole packets of biscuits ,tubs ice cream,loaves of bread ,cartons of cereal .binge and vomit 5 times a day.I would even steal the food if I didnt have the money I was so out of control and sugar just sent me literally crazy.It is not as bad now -I get it over and done with on a couple of brownies and a couple of yoghurts and a few bananas but I still end up gaining a couple of kilos in one night .I think because I couldnt vomit really I was puking so much blood -dont know why.But its so tireing and disheartening when I have been trying to lose weight then put it back on and more in one night .I feel soooooo low .But I found a book by Susan Jeffers called Embracing Uncertainty and she talks about having a hero mentality instead of a victim one,to find blessings in bad times ,to come out stronger once youre better ,to appreciate small things and maybe become more understanding,and to remember we are all gonna die so make the most of now... I dont know but its a good book.I dont know what to say about being so out of control with the bingeing ,I have been like that and it is reaaallly horrible nightmare ,I feel for you.This too shall pass is what I keep saying to myself when its bad .How about trying to lay off the sugar for awhile ,I think with some foods they are like drugs and they just take over the body and can cause cravings .Also keeping binge foods in the house can be not such a good idea-I slipped up yesterday on brownies I had in the freezer however I probably would have gone out to buy some if they were not there or binged on porrige or something -coz I had allready started .Anyway hang in there.I am sure we can recover -I believe that -somehow .
blueflower