Yeah, I've been trying to focus on personal growth too. It helps, but it doesn't make the loneliness go away. I know I should take care of myself. But honestly, I think personal growth right now, for me, is really challenging, I keep feeling like there's no point in life. The more you live, the more inevitable pain comes and engulfs you everyday. I do not feel suicidal or anything like that, just asking: what am I living for? Just feels like my life is really meaningless right now.

Your reply gave me a fresh perspective though. Thanks!