Feeling crappy again today. Will force myself to go out, get gas, go to the bank and to an AA meeting. This afternoon, I'm sure, will be filled with my default activity of watching mindless t.v. Should be going out to dinner with my husband tonight. As usual, I will go in my bed probably after we get home just to escape the world. I'm tired of feeling like this and really need - - and deserve - - a break!