I feel like I want to say something, but then I don't know what it'd be. Well I read your post. Depression has won over me, it has taken over completely. The only thing I really do now is work and sleep. Only stopping to eat if someone forces me to. If I lived alone I'd be dead by now cause I won't eat on my own. I'm able to keep my job because I'm not required to have any social skills, which is good because I have none.

About meds, I just stopped taking all of my meds, I've tried at least 20+ different kinds of meds throughout this year, and, well all sorts of treatments and things. None of it helped me, I hope it will help you. In fact I feel a lot worse now. I constantly get lost in my head thinking or dreaming and sometimes I just don't know what to say.

I don't have any real contact with the outside world except coming onto this site from time to time. It is probably for the best, even though it causes me great pain. All I'd be is a problem to anyone. It is very hard to find the strength to go on like this.