Hi Everyone,

I'm Amy. I was diagnosed as Bipolar in September after not accepting my husband cruelly abandoning me in a satisfactory manner for the psychiatrists. I guess I was just supposed to be happy about it. I was put on Lithium 900mg, Risperidone .5mg, omeprazole due to the lithium, benzatropine due to the risperidone, hydroxyzine to sleep and levoxyl because the lithium wacked out my thyroid levels. Recently, my insurance company has refused to fill my risperidone or benztropine, and when I run out of the rest in a few weeks, wont fill those either. When I was on all the meds, I was numb all the time. Nothing would bother me. But now that I'm off the risperidone, I am angry. Either I erupt at people, or I have freaky scary dreams about hurting people from my past verbally. But at the same time, I'm no longer numb - I have compassion again, and can feel things. I like being able to feel, just not the anger.

On Jan. 16 I will lose my insurance. I have SSDI due to the disability, but because of a 401K from when I was able to work, I'm not eligible for Medicaid. Nor am I eligible for the ACA (Obamacare) - my income is too low. This is just making me more angry!!! One solution suggested by my county was to simply surrender my 401K to the state. Not Happening!!! I have an MBA in public accounting - the state is not getting my money without a court fight, but in the meantime, I will have no insurance.

I have a family nurse practitioner who is overlooking my meds and situation until I get on a plan with a psychiatrist again, but how do I deal with not having any support until then? Can anyone help???? Thanks.