Just to summarize, this week, i saw my t on monday and friday (today), and he texted me on wednesday (xmasday) to say merry xmas. He had said on monday that he would be thinking of me. I was like all, why? I dont get it. His text made me anxious and i expressed that. We talked about it today, and i was like, when ANYBODY approaches me, i dont know what they want from me; im afraid of what their attitude will be - mad or not mad. Either one is bad! Either one is my mother / filter.

So he said he knew i would be dreading any contact from my mother on xmas, and that was kind of running thru his head when he texted me. I guess my point is, the point of any t contact over a holiday is that it is probably going to be significant or clarify or highlight something for you. Or that it has that potential. If you can just go with the feeling. Its just therapy continued.