I'm wondering too, if all these ambitious people just do it because of their extreme need for self gratification... got to get myself a reason to keep going too. I really don't understand why my sister seems to never be depressed and has accomplished so much......while I drag myself around trying to do the simplest things. I do know she was loved and I was a mistake and I was neglected and she wasn't...
do need to stop letting others have control over what I think about too

Today I feel okay I think, got real angry last night, just you know, venting out loud to myself and yelling at God and I felt better after.