Mine told me to text him if I needed a phone session...which to me was because I don't know how to ask for such a thing. I would be intruding on him and his time. BUT when thinking about you, I would say go ahead because your T wouldn't have offered if she didn't mean it. Isn't that funny? It's ok for you but not for me? I really am coming to terms with my lack of self-care. It is a place of sheer grief to see so much more clearly how horrible I treat myself and how messed up I am due to so many factors that were beyond my control. It really is a grieving process.

My goal to aspire to is that someday I will be able to reach out to my T if I need it. AND that I will know why I need him so I can articulate it. Because as it is, I wouldn't know how to put it into words if I did end up reaching out to him so what's the point of sitting in silence? Although, maybe that's ok too (?) sorry I don't have much clarity to add I hope you are able to sort it out