I don't want to tell him he's intimidating to me, I was referring to the hugs thing but I didn't explain it well in English.

I do now think it's worth waiting before contacting T because while I agree on the "nothing ventured nothing gained" I also want to protect myself from a potential shock (T rejecting me) on the other hand. I wouldn't have thought too much about it this time, had it happened at least outside the holiday season, because I think she'd be there. But in the holiday-mode you never know. Once in session she gave a hint that I could actually call for emergencies. Oh I hate holidays.. I'll call if I'm not safe and can't cope on my own.

I'll keep posting... you guys are truly amazing.