Thanks Eskielover for your words of encouragement. I made the decision to go to this program, yet didn't think it would be this way. Never faced an eating disorder going the other way (concerned being anorexic), so didn't know what to expect.

I used to feel right at home during my Weight Watcher days, fitting right in with the other fatties. I did phone the caseworker, who sympathized with me and said she would try and put me in with some people my own age. It's the age that is a concern, but also the appearance. I felt so out of place, as if people were looking at me thinking "why is she here, she isn't exactly thin".

I thought depression is hard to deal with, this is much worse....and this is making the depression much worse. I'll keep in touch, but at least you are over 20 and can relate. Thanks. CG