I am a dude and one of my best friend like to shoot guns at the shooting range. I have been to these shooting range like 3 times with that friend. But I have bipolar disorder and anxiety.... I don't feel comfortable about being around guns. Every time, he is in town, he wants to shoot guns at the shooting range. (The thing is, these shooting ranges allows shooting guns, in 2 pairs of people.) He wants to drag me into the shooting range, just so he can shoot guns.

He already knows that I have an mental illness. I just don't know why, he feels that it is okay for me to shoot guns... Like many others with bipolar disorder, I have suicidal thoughts. And sometimes I feel that one way to die, is going to these shooting range with that friend, and shooting my self with a gun. I am too afraid to act upon it, and I don't think I will do that. Nevertheless, there is a possibility that I might act on it, if/when I am severely depressed.

What do you guys think?! Should I keep him as a friend? Or should I cut him off, just for my own safety? I know this dude for like 20 years, and he is one of my best friend. I kind of feel that he is using me, for his gun shooting hobbies. I haven't told him that I don't like being around guns, but I feel that he should already know cause I told him I have bipolar disorder. It is a catch 22, because I don't have many friends and he is one of the few guys that I hang out with.