I don't think I have an eating disorder, but every time I eat I feel guilty and I think about how fat I'll be and wish I could stop but I can't. I've considered starving myself, and purging, but I also convince myself not to.
When people touch me, I freak out because I'm scared they'll feel all the fat.
I'm not overweight, but when I go to the doctor and get weighed, it makes me feel bad about myself if I've gained any weight.
I'm scared other people will notice how fat I am.

I don't understand all this, and I want it to stop. How do I solve this problem before it actually becomes something serious?
-Sam