Lately and usually on and off I have thoughts and plans of hurting or even killing myself, not for attention, but to make the pain of loneliness stop. I constantly feel lonely and have no friends and have trouble making them. I don't understand why people don't like being friends with me or don't show any interest. It may be partly because I look a bit different and am moderately to severely hearing impaired, but I still feel like there are other reasons. People seem okay knowing me on a more casual level, like acquaintanceships, but no more than that. Or people feel like they need to befriend me only out of pity, obligation, or to use me. I'm really fed up with this and just sometimes want out since I can no longer find any answers and when I ask people in real life, either they say they don't know why I have trouble making friends, or that I'm too nice which I have changed that now since I no longer let people walk over me, or people will say that there is nothing wrong with me. If there is nothing wrong with me then I don't understand why I can't make friends. If there is something wrong with me, then I need to know so I can rectify the problem.