First off, I never knew that I had something called '' hypomania ''. My understanding was I simply had many unbelievably fabulous moods, lasting for months at a time, firmly believing this was my true self.
I didn't know that my agitation, irritability, impulsivity, resentments, obsessive thoughts and actions, anger, etc; were all part of the same thing.
After the dx, and taking meds, I still do not always recognize when I'm going high.
The high is my reality, which is scary because it means I could go and do something to ruin my life without knowing what I'm doing.