I went to my doctor yesterday and I am mixed about her. I can talk a little more coherently right now (At least I think) and she said I am definitely manic right now. But that ain't true at all, I just slept 14 hours. That happens more often in depression. In the afternoon I do get really bad, incoherent, clanging and see and hear more things. Also the speech is rapid and pressured (like a manic person). but in reality I think I'm having a mixed episode with severe anxiety. So severe that at night I get sick. I barely eat at night for dinner. Maybe a few bites. I AM hopeless about my future, but have racing thoughts. Two contradictory things. Hopelessness is a sign of depression and racing thoughts is a sign of mania. The appointment was scary. She (this was my first appointment) thinks its bipolar and borderline personality disorder. I hope its OK to post in here. I don't think I can live without you guys. I'm also very distractible I know that can be a manic symptom. But in reality I can't control my moods right now at ALL. One moment I am crying my brains out and the next I am bouncing off the walls singing and being incoherent. My sleep patterns are messed up as well, 2-14 hours for the win! I don't know how much she actually knows about mental illness but she does know a lot about pills. But the sad thing is that she is taking me off the anti anxiety pills, all of them. Wouldn't that make me so anxious that I go crazy? Some of the things she said I didn't like.