She basically implied I "like" being this way and not making enough effort to change. Also she mentioned the word "true" or "truth" and then pointed at me, thinking I wasn't telling the truth (at least that's what I think in my mind). She has no feelings either. Since my anxiety was sky high, I was having my thought disorder there not making any sense and my memory for things was impaired. I would say things over and over again without knowing according to my parents. To be honest I didn't want to tell her my deepest thoughts yet (my so called delusions and hallucinations), but somehow it was forced out of me. I don't like telling people that until they get to know me more and trust is formed. I have enough insight that my thoughts are weird, but at the same time I've had weird thoughts forever. I'm just weird.