Hang in there, because even when you expect something like this, the reality of it is mind-numbing. My parents are both on their 3rd marriages now, and I can' say you ever get used to going through a divorce. Reaching out for advice is important and helps you realize you are not alone. No one can tell you anything to make it easier...it is a crappy hand to be dealt no matter how you look at it. Allow yourself to go through all those crazy feelings- it is natural and unavoidable to feel like you do. You will go throuh stages of grieving, much like a death. But you have a network of people, even strangers like me, who feel for you and can try to give you some perspective. The main thing is to keep in mind that it is ok to feel like you are coming a little unglued...be patient with yourself as well as your parents. You will feel sad, angry, disappointed, helpless at times...other times you may see with clarity that this is something that has to happen for people to become more mentally healthy. Staying in a bad (or just "cold") relationship eats away at your soul, so remember that sometimes separation and divorce is the only option. It's never easy...I feel for you and hope you find some solace in the fact that you can reach out for advice in times like this. Not isolating yourself and openly venting how you feel is the best thing you can do. Your mom and dad must love you to death, whether or not they are able to show it all the time. I still have emotional scars, it still haunts me on occasion, but man I sure learned a lot about who I was and what I believed through the process. Take it day by day...you will make it through. Support mom and dad individually as best you can, and take care of yourself.