I have texted T while under the influence. She has texted back with concern but not so much an actual reply, as I made no sense to her. She was aware I was intoxicated. It was obvious.
I am on the wagon now. I spent about 6 months last year consuming copious amounts of vodka to dull my emotions. I learned the hard way alcohol is completely unproductive and it will be a long time before I'm in the right frame of mind to have even the smallest amount in my life.