Well, two days ago or a week after my grandma died, I finally decided to send T the email I had typed out. I wrote a couple of sentences, signed my name, then wrote the rest so she wouldn't have to read the whole thing. The first couple of sentences were, "I just needed to get this out and wanted to let you know. I'm alright, I don't need/expect much/anything, but when you have time could you read some of this (the beginning & end- it's long so don't read it all) and keep it safe for a few weeks" and then I summarized what happened in a sentence or two. After I signed my name there were about 3 paragraphs of details. I wrote it that way so T could just read a couple sentences if she wanted to and also so t knew I was okay and didn't need to talk with her immediately, though she probably would have arranged a short phone call if I really needed it. I wasn't sure if T would reply at all, but knowing what t has done before I guessed she would probably give a "short & sweet/to the point" reply. This morning I got this reply from T, "Thank you so much for letting me know. I'm so sad for you, what an overwhelming, helpless experience. I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family". Part of me can't wait for the session in 10 days- I'm in a weird way glad/excited to work this out.