I just got back from my yearly trip "home" and I got to see my main T in person finally.

I always worry that a whole year will underscore how much older he is getting (he's got to be approaching 70 by now). He physically looks good, but he seems "slower" somehow, less verbally quick, and he seems to take longer to react to what I'm saying. It worries me.

I can't imagine my life without his support but that day is coming eventually. Seeing a CBT T out here is a bit of insurance in a way--if something happens to main T then I'm not totally stranded.

Main T asked me about CBT T and how it is going. I made it clear although it is working well, main T can never be replaced. Then he surprised me with the comment "Although I can't be replaced as a person I hope by now you know that my role can be replaced."

He's never spoken this way before. I'm a little shaken by it.

Has anyone lost a T to retirement or death? Has anyone been "ok" by starting again with another T? I don't know how to prepare myself for the inevitable.