I've never been diagnosed with an ED, but for about 5 years I've been struggling with food. I've gone from bingeing in MASSIVE portions (15+ crisps, 5+ choc bars, and dinner) to fasting for days on end. I've never seen the point of going to the doctor because, well, let's just say nobody is interested or takes you seriously unless you are super skinny. I'm 140lbs, so obviously everyone would just think I'm making it up for attention or trying to use it as an excuse or something.

I've now found an ana buddy
And I have a feeling things are going to get better. If I get thin enough, maybe then people will start to notice and I won't be the fat ugly girl in the corner no one cares about.
My therapist knows I've lost a stone, but hey, I don't care, she can't do anything about it. I'm not going to tell her about any of this, she probably thinks I'm making it up anyway. I'm dreading going back to counselling in January - she'll see that I haven't lost any more weight and she'll put it down to me lying to get attention or something.
I am going to HAVE to lose weight now, no matter what.