...oh hell I wake up after a giant hit of C2H5OH...
and it's not nasty like it used to be...
something inside me has adapted to seriously large amounts of this stuff
...I am so dis-interested in what makes me function...
which is really a dysfunction
...I can wander around pissed....and equally wander around ....
this equidistant dis-satisfaction is ...
who cares!
I can continue finding reasons to not do this...
I find none
what happens?....
I tell me...myself that I function better this way
so to hell with it
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