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Originally Posted by ahdm
I've never seen the point of going to the doctor because, well, let's just say nobody is interested or takes you seriously unless you are super skinny. I'm xxxlbs, so obviously everyone would just think I'm making it up for attention or trying to use it as an excuse or something.
I've now found an ana buddy 
And I have a feeling things are going to get better. If I get thin enough, maybe then people will start to notice and I won't be the fat ugly girl in the corner no one cares about.
I am going to HAVE to lose weight now, no matter what. |
I am very sorry you are in the grips of such disordered thinking and behaviors. I am glad you have a therapist and encourage you to work on these issues directly, rather than hoping they will see the signs and bring it up to you. Those kinds of passive aggressive and manipulative actions only hurt you.
TBH, I am not sure what response you are looking from with this posting. The big smiley after announcing you found an ana buddy indicates you are happy about that, which is certainly not something anyone of us on this site who are struggling to recover can support. We can provide encouragement and lessons learned from our attempts to break the grips of A/B though, so keep posting if you're seeking help to get better. Pro Ana posts are inappropriate and triggering.
Good luck and many fond wishes
