I also think about my T every day. Sometimes it feels like obsession, and sometimes it doesn't. My Ts have always been big and important parts of my life. I often worry that something might happen to her, and I grieve for that. But much of the time I'm thinking of her when I'm doing something that we've shared, like art or photography, or yoga, and I feel happy that we're both doing something we enjoy, and I feel connected to her then.