I will start off by saying that my therapist is really nice and genuinely caring in his approach. I have no doubts about his character or skill as a therapist.

With that said, I just can't seem to trust or be honest about how I feel with him.

The easy answer would be to just get another therapist. The problem with that approach is that I have had other therapists and it pretty much results to the same thing.

I want so badly to feel trust and a higher comfort level. I just can't seem to connect.

The therapy sessions have become so arduous that I inevitably end up just sort of zoning out while he is left to go on these long speeches about different psychological approaches, theories and his experiences with other clients with similar backgrounds. He even uses my favorite hobby in metaphors to either keep my interest or build a connection, I'm not sure which.

I have been seeing this therapist for about 2 years and I have still been hoping to feel some sort of therapeutic connection. I think I may just be unable to connect with someone about what is really going on with me. At least not someone who has the ability to put me in the hospital or be called to testify in court (both have happened in the past).

IDK what exactly to do. For now, I have not seen him for a few months. I have been using transportation as an excuse not to go. I will need to face this again at some point I'm sure, either with him or someone else.