It is difficult to be said, but I know that I will probably have a hard 2014. Conditions are given for that. It will take time to get my pension (it will be derived from my deceased father social security contributions). Meanwhile, I am without health insurance until this pension issue gets sort. It will take time for the family house to be sold so I can get my share and buy a little house for me and my animals. In the meantime, I have to live with my brother who has an untreated personality disorder. In order to avoid conflicts, as his condition makes him to be often aggressive and abusive, and because despite having promised to pay some bills, he has let those bills unpaid in the past, I am paying all the bills. It is being hard on my economy, but it is all I can do for now. I cannot afford the psychiatry visits I requested. Still, I guess I can use the public service, but it is difficult and expensive for me to transfer to the public mental health hospital in the area given my disability. I try to be regularly at home as my brother takes opportunity to steal or destroy stuff when I am absent. Last time, he stole my sowing machine. I got him to bring it back (I think he had sold it but he finally returned the machine to me). Returning the machine took a lot of time and arguments, he threaten me, and sent several ugly text messages to me, but I insisted and finally he got the machine back. I am not sure he still on drugs or not. I requested the provincial state to help me to have him treated or evicted but it has not worked, so far, I guess because I do not have a crony in the justice system. I live in a corrupt country. It is not nice to live with my brother, but I will have to do it during 2014, I guess.
I am trying to make a detailed plan, first time in my life because I do not like very detailed plans for the future. I think it is the only way I can cope, but I am not sure.
I am thinking that I should plan, once the house can be sold, to buy a house in a small town because here it will be not possible. Houses are very expensive and my share is not that big. But leaving the city scares me a bit. I will have to buy a car, as well. Anyway, somehow I feel sad because I know that I have a hard year to come.
Thank you for listening!